Spirits in Bondage | Page 5

I could not draw near nor enter in,
And long I wondered if some secret sin
Or old,
unhappy anger held me fast;
Till suddenly it came into my head
That I was killed long since and lying deadOnly
a
homeless wraith that way had passed.
So thus I found my true love's house again
And stood unseen amid the winter night

And the lamp burned within, a rosy light,
And the wet street was shining in the rain.
VII. Apology
If men should ask, Despoina, why I tell
Of nothing glad nor noble in my verse
To
lighten hearts beneath this present curse
And build a heaven of dreams in real hell,
Go you to them and speak among them thus:
"There were no greater grief than to recall,

Down in the rotting grave where the lithe worms crawl,
Green fields above that
smiled so sweet to us."
Is it good to tell old tales of Troynovant
Or praises of dead heroes, tried and sage,
Or
sing the queens of unforgotten age,
Brynhild and Maeve and virgin Bradamant?
How should I sing of them? Can it be good
To think of glory now, when all is done,

And all our labour underneath the sun
Has brought us this-and not the thing we would?
All these were rosy visions of the night,
The loveliness and wisdom feigned of old.

But now we wake. The East is pale and cold,
No hope is in the dawn, and no delight.
VIII. Ode for New Year's Day
Woe unto you, ye sons of pain that are this day in earth,
Now cry for all your torment:
now curse your hour of birth
And the fathers who begat you to a portion nothing worth.

And Thou, my own beloved, for as brave as ere thou art,
Bow down thine head,
Despoina, clasp thy pale arms over it, Lie low with fast-closed eyelids, clenched teeth,
enduring heart, For sorrow on sorrow is coming wherein all flesh has part.
The sky
above is sickening, the clouds of God's hate cover it, Body and soul shall suffer beyond

all word or thought,
Till the pain and noisy terror that these first years have wrought
Seem but the soft arising and prelude of the storm
That fiercer still and heavier with
sharper lightnings fraught Shall pour red wrath upon us over a world deform.
Thrice happy, O Despoina, were the men who were alive
In the great age and the
golden age when still the cycle ran On upward curve and easily, for them both maid and
man
And beast and tree and spirit in the green earth could thrive. But now one age is
ending, and God calls home the stars
And looses the wheel of the ages and sends it
spinning back Amid the death of nations, and points a downward track,
And madness is
come over us and great and little wars.
He has not left one valley, one isle of fresh and
green
Where old friends could forgather amid the howling wreck.
It's vainly we are
praying. We cannot, cannot check
The Power who slays and puts aside the beauty that
has been.
It's truth they tell, Despoina, none hears the heart's complaining For Nature will not pity,
nor the red God lend an ear,
Yet I too have been mad in the hour of bitter paining
And
lifted up my voice to God, thinking that he could hear
The curse wherewith I cursed
Him because the Good was dead. But lo! I am grown wiser, knowing that our own hearts

Have made a phantom called the Good, while a few years have sped Over a little
planet. And what should the great Lord know of it Who tosses the dust of chaos and gives
the suns their parts? Hither and thither he moves them; for an hour we see the show of it:
Only a little hour, and the life of the race is done.
And here he builds a nebula, and
there he slays a sun
And works his own fierce pleasure. All things he shall fulfill, And
O, my poor Despoina, do you think he ever hears
The wail of hearts he has broken, the
sound of human ill?
He cares not for our virtues, our little hopes and fears,
And how
could it all go on, love, if he knew of laughter and tears?
Ah, sweet, if a man could cheat him! If you could flee away Into some other country
beyond the rosy West,
To hide in the deep forests and be for ever at rest
From the
rankling hate of God and the outworn world's decay!
IX. Night
After the fret and failure of this day,
And weariness of thought, O Mother Night,

Come with soft kiss to soothe our care away
And all our little tumults set to right;

Most pitiful of all death's kindred fair,
Riding above us through the curtained air
On
thy dusk car, thou scatterest to the earth

Sweet dreams and drowsy charms of tender
might
And lovers' dear delight before to-morrow's birth.
Thus art thou wont thy quiet
lands to