be sure, they have failed me miserably. But that, of course, 
you cannot help, and, curiously enough, now that all's lost, the thing 
that most bothers me is the horrid thought that I cannot repay you. 
My father, you know, is principal of a public school and actually 
managed to save some money. But he has five children beside myself, 
all of whom are unprovided for. He looked upon me as his capital 
which would bring more than the usual rate of interest. Being a 
practical man, he now realises he has lost both principal and interest. 
In brief, he is afraid of responsibilities which unfortunately I cannot 
shoulder in the better world to come--faugh, faugh, faugh!--I spit three 
times. What shall I do? Would you be able to forego the payment of my 
debt? 
Several times, old boy, I have been two thirds of the way over already, 
and I have left for you some notes on the states I have passed through, 
which may not be lacking in scientific interest. Should it be possible for 
me, after the great moment, to make myself noticeable from the 
Beyond, you will hear from me again. 
Where are you? Good-bye. In the vivid, flashing orgies of my nocturnal
dreams, you are always tossing in a ship on the high seas. Do you 
intend to go on an ocean trip? 
It is January. Isn't there a certain advantage in not needing to dread 
April weather any longer? I shake hands with you, Frederick von 
Kammacher. 
Yours, George Rasmussen. 
* * * * * 
Frederick, of course, had immediately sent a telegram from Paris, 
which relieved the son, dying a heroic death, from solicitude for his 
hale father. 
Though Frederick von Kammacher had profound troubles of his own to 
occupy his mind, his thoughts kept recurring to the letter in his pocket 
and his dying friend. To an imaginative person of thirty, his life of the 
past few years is in an eminent degree present to his mind. There had 
been a tragic turn in Frederick's own life, and now tragedy had also 
entered his friend's life, a tragedy far more awful. 
The two young men had been separated for a number of years. They 
had met again and passed a number of happy weeks together, enriched 
by a liberal exchange of ideas. Those weeks were the beginning of 
similar epochs in the career of each. It was at little winter festivities in 
Frederick von Kammacher's comfortable home that the cigarettes of 
Simon Arzt of Port Said, which Rasmussen had brought from the place 
of their manufacture, had played their rôle. 
Now, in the reading-room of Hofmann's Hotel, near the harbour, he 
wrote him a letter. 
* * * * * 
Dear old George, 
My fingers are clammy. I am constantly dipping a broken pen in
mouldy ink; but if I don't write to you now, you won't get any news of 
me for three weeks. This evening I board the Roland of the North 
German Steamship Company. 
There seems to be something in your dreams. Nobody could have told 
you of my trip. Two hours before I started, I myself knew nothing of it. 
Day after to-morrow it will be a year since you came to us direct from 
Bremen, after your second journey, with a trunk full of stories, 
photographs, and the cigarettes of Simon Arzt. I had scarcely set foot in 
England when twenty paces from the landing-place, I beheld our 
beloved brand in a shop window. Of course, I bought some, by 
wholesale, in fact, and am smoking one while writing, for the sake of 
auld lang syne. Unfortunately, this horrible reading-room in which I am 
writing doesn't get any the warmer, no matter how many cigarettes I 
light. 
You were with us two weeks when fate came and knocked at the door. 
We both rushed to the door and caught a cold, it seems. As for me, I 
have sold my house, given up my practice, and put my three children in 
a boarding school. And as for my wife, you know what has befallen 
her. 
The devil! Sometimes it makes one creepy to think of the past. To both 
of us it seemed a splendid thing for you to take over our sick 
colleague's practice. I can see you dashing about to visit your patients 
in his sleigh and fur coat. And when he died, I had not the slightest 
objection to your settling down as a country physician in the immediate 
vicinity, although we had always poked a lot of fun at a country 
physician's starvation practice. 
Now things have turned out very differently. 
Do you remember with what an endless number of monotonous jokes 
the goldfinches that fairly overran the Heuscheuer Mountains used to 
furnish us? When    
    
		
	
	
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