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to expect, it found a
world of air and movement and freedom and blue sky--with kites in it.
For my own part, I often wished, when a child, that I had watched
while God was making me, so that I might have remembered how he
did it. Now my wonder is whether, when I creep forth into 'that new
world which is the old,' I shall be conscious of the birth, and enjoy the
whole mighty surprise, or whether I shall become gradually aware that
things are changed and stare about me like the new-born baby. What
will be the candle-flame that shall first attract my new-born sight? But I
forget that speculation about the new life is not writing the history of
the old.
I have often tried how far back my memory could go. I suspect there
are awfully ancient shadows mingling with our memories; but, as far as
I can judge, the earliest definite memory I have is the discovery of how
the wind is made; for I saw the process going on before my very eyes,
and there could be, and there was, no doubt of the relation of cause and

effect in the matter. There were the trees swaying themselves about
after the wildest fashion, and there was the wind in consequence
visiting my person somewhat too roughly. The trees were blowing in
my face. They made the wind, and threw it at me. I used my natural
senses, and this was what they told me. The discovery impressed me so
deeply that even now I cannot look upon trees without a certain
indescribable and, but for this remembrance, unaccountable awe. A
grove was to me for many years a fountain of winds, and, in the stillest
day, to look into a depth of gathered stems filled me with dismay; for
the whole awful assembly might, writhing together in earnest and
effectual contortion, at any moment begin their fearful task of churning
the wind.
There were no trees in the neighbourhood of the house where I was
born. It stood in the midst of grass, and nothing but grass was to be
seen for a long way on every side of it. There was not a gravel path or a
road near it. Its walls, old and rusty, rose immediately from the grass.
Green blades and a few heads of daisies leaned trustingly against the
brown stone, all the sharpness of whose fractures had long since
vanished, worn away by the sun and the rain, or filled up by the slow
lichens, which I used to think were young stones growing out of the
wall. The ground was part of a very old dairy-farm, and my uncle, to
whom it belonged, would not have a path about the place. But then the
grass was well subdued by the cows, and, indeed, I think, would never
have grown very long, for it was of that delicate sort which we see only
on downs and in parks and on old grazing farms. All about the
house--as far, at least, as my lowly eyes could see--the ground was
perfectly level, and this lake of greenery, out of which it rose like a
solitary rock, was to me an unfailing mystery and delight. This will
sound strange in the ears of those who consider a mountainous, or at
least an undulating, surface essential to beauty; but nature is altogether
independent of what is called fine scenery. There are other organs than
the eyes, even if grass and water and sky were not of the best and
loveliest of nature's shows.
The house, I have said, was of an ancient-looking stone, grey and green
and yellow and brown. It looked very hard; yet there were some

attempts at carving about the heads of the narrow windows. The
carving had, however, become so dull and shadowy that I could not
distinguish a single form or separable portion of design: still some
ancient thought seemed ever flickering across them. The house, which
was two stories in height, had a certain air of defence about it, ill to
explain. It had no eaves, for the walls rose above the edge of the roof;
but the hints at battlements were of the merest. The roof, covered with
grey slates, rose very steep, and had narrow, tall dormer windows in it.
The edges of the gables rose, not in a slope, but in a succession of
notches, like stairs. Altogether, the shell to which, considered as a
crustaceous animal, I belonged--for man is every animal according as
you choose to contemplate him--had an old-world look about it--a look
of the time when men had to fight in order to have peace, to kill in
order to live. Being, however, a crustaceous animal, I, the heir of all